How Time Flies!

Wow having looked back now since I last posted back in December, SO much has happened!!!!

So I have been sitting here reflecting on what the last nearly six months has meant to me. I certainly can't say its been easy by any stretch of the imagination - however what I can say it has been EPIC!

In bite sizes:

1. Launched my first Satori Experience Event 
2. Travelled to Nepal and Tibet
3. Sold my house
4. Sold my car
5. Let go of all my worldly belongings
6. Moved back to London
7. Picked up around 6 kgs of weight
8. Met some life changing people
9. Went to Base Camp of Mount Everest
10. Had a lot of hands on Healing
11. Completed Reiki Level 2

So not a lot really!!!!! Interesting when you start to pay attention and you recap on even just a few days ago or months its amazing what you see. In essence it has been life changing on of course a practical level but also on a emotional level.

Letting go of my home and worldly goods was not that hard however the after affect of it has been unexpected. For instance all that hard work and what do I have to show for it.....type of thoughts creep in. Well frankly I am SO much happier not being "plugged in" to the illusion that I owned my house - because of course the bank does until you pay it off in full. Amazing how you can actually live your life without all the material trappings and very comfortably too - quite liberating!! How much "stuff" that is just emotional neediness that we accumulate and then get sentimental about objects when actually the experience is in us not because of the object. So letting go, throwing out, sharing and destroying all that was taking up space, emotionally, physically and egotistically attached to me has been amazing.

So now where does that leave me...............the assumption by friends has been ok well you sold your nice house and furniture so you must be in the money! Well no not quiet the whole story. Amazing how people presume to know your life. I came out with £8.17 and that was a winner! With the market as it is and the costs of selling a house - around £10k I was happy to just walk away. So financially its back to basics as lucky for me I do not have all the associated costs anymore! Yay! Just rent where ever I chose to stay, and other basic costs phone etc. More investment therefore for my business and travel - my real passions!! 

So with a few boxes, my cat Boots and all the worldly goods I have left I am now sharing a beautiful house with a lovely friend, in a great location (back in London) and honestly feel like a new person. Boots is delighted and really settled in as I think the energy in my old house was not great for him - well I know it wasn't. Even with him having to get used to a dog - he is much happier and more settled here than he ever was before. So am I x

All in all a very liberating, challenging, emotional and cleansing experience! Now what is more important is how I design the next chapter of my wonderful life. More travel, going to Nepal and Tibet again in October with my business, The Satori Experience - www.thesatoriexperience.com and planning another adventure for April to Hawaii next year. Of course I have to visit it first to make sure the venue etc. is right ;-)!!! At the same time I now have the head space and location to start looking after my health as there is more walking to do, a beautiful forest to investigate and of course the lovely summer weather to enjoy - well when summer actually starts that is.

Its all good in my world at the moment. Its simple, going with the flow and giving me the space and time to just be.

I am one very lucky lady!!!! xxx

Tipping point of humanity - What are you choosing?

Spending the weekend with some awesome friends at an amazing event call The Awakening with the beautiful and gifted Sidra Jafri, I had a very big shift pertaining to challenge I have had all of my life. Wow was it profound!!!! I know I wasn't the only one and so having spent over 25 years in the industry of public speakers, entertainer and international super stars, it dawned on me we are truly changing as species! There is less necessity for guru's and experts as each one of us has something completely unique to contribute while we are in this dimension. Its just the level of vibration that is different and no one is better than another it just is energy. Those that are vibrating at a high frequency such as the wonderful Sidra are the new influencers who are facilitating a profound movement of change.

In a room of 200 or so people of which surprisingly there were more men than women, this incredible soul on stage, Sidra, embraced the whole concept of waking up to a whole new reality and letting go of the illusion of what we have created in our lives. It reminded me of two wonderful movies that have been on in the last few years - Avatar and the other Inception.These films at the time seemed futuristic and "Syfy" in their genre and the marketing was certainly positioned that way. However the more I pay attention the more I realise that so much of both these movies, what is happening in our existence today. I don't mean so much literally but more each element is actually happening in some way shape or form in our society, planet and conciousness.

So for instance with Avatar the main themes as I see it, are these:

• A world that works with nature, connected to nature and with each other for the benefit of all
• A movement outside of the natural order trying to gain resources for its own survival and not considering the consequences
• Two worlds that co-exist where the outcome for human kind are inextricably linked and yet so completely different

So I consider as I write this how much of REAL life (or our own personal illusion we have each created) is similar to those of a simple Syfy master piece? There is no need for me to answer this question as it's already answered through the knowing/sensing within us that we are experiencing and the shift and connection to something really profound.

Now with Inception it become interesting when we consider the power of our mind and how we use it daily to create the world we live in for each of us as individuals but also as the collective. Which part of our life is the "REALITY" and which part of it is the "ILLUSION"? Its amazing to think we are all completely individual in our creation! NO ONE on this earth is exactly like you. You are 100% truly unique! The way you look, the way you think, the way you see the world, the way you experience, the way people experience you is completely and totally unique! Is this really just a movie? How many of us related to either of these movies and had a sense of knowing and relating to what they were saying, even if we didn't fully understand or agree with it? There is a sense of knowingness?

And there are 7 billion unique souls all creating a similar reality and existence! If we wanted to change our reality or the illusion we could do it easily, not only as individuals but also as the collective without having to "convert" anyone just pay attention to ourselves. It simply is a choice of co-creation. Each individual "pebble" dropping into water creates its own ripple. So if each of us just created our own reality as we wanted it to be then the ripple affect of it could be huge. 

So we are coming to a "tipping point" where we as souls living a human experience can chose the life we wish to have in 2013 onwards - what an incredible time to be alive at the specific time of human evolution! How exciting that when you tap into the "source" of creation you can redefine your reality and co-create anything you want - SCARY and EXCITING all at the same time.

Pay attention to who you want to show up as, come from your heart and not just your head, believe, trust and have faith that life is full of abundance and joy and our experiences are gifts of learning and growth. We can chose to see the negative with anything or we can also chose to the see the glorious reality that just is without putting any meaning on it.

BE THE CHANGE!

With love and much appreciation and gratitude Tamar xxx

So what is this SHIFT time really about?

Part of my own inner transformation has been some serious research of what the fuss is all about with the whole 2012 and specifically the 12.12.2012 and 21.12.2012. So there is so much out there if you look on Google, YouTube, individual blog's both scientific and spiritual, the Mayan calendars and so many other unique happenings that we are experiencing in our life times.

The press just love the gloom and doom which in reality is just not so. Yes it is a time of transformation but it has been going on for the last few years and I believe it will continue at least until 2015 from what my research has offered. Global warming is happening and yes man is contributing to it but it is not the reason for it as its the earth's evolution which has been happening for millions of years - we just happened to be experiencing a specific time of evolution of the earth in our life time.

Governments, agents and other political parties have been very quiet about what is going on as divided we are ignorant and together we are powerful. So there is a VERY power joining of millions of like minded people that are sharing the TRUTH as they understand it not from a human capacity but from an enlightened perspective and very much a scientific angle too. One thing that the human "powers that be" can not thankfully control is the essence of human knowing and the sharing of this knowledge and experience.

There are some great individuals who seem to all be speaking the same messages so thought I would share it them with you:  Gregg Branden http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=whKrENfkMEM. David Icke - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9hiVEZnmWn4&feature=related. Keisha Crowther -http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WMyq7xvlH08 and so many others. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lEV5AFFcZ-s.

Such great information out there to make up your own mind. The common thread through all of these is to awaken to the real truth, understand your personal power and stay in place of love no matter may happen over the next year or few years. Just because something major may not happen on 12.12.2012 or 21.12.2012 or any other exact day, doesn't mean to say things are not changing. Pay attention to your energy, to what is happening in your own heart, if you are willing to pay real attention and be much more AWARE of your own existence and what it really means to be alive and your purpose. Be open to the possibility of whatever is out there even if it seems completely unreal - just pay attention - wake up!

The world is changing and becoming so much more of what we were meant to be as humans! There is so much evidence and even now scientific proof (what humans are able to comprehend as we are truly limited currently in understanding our world and using such a small percentage of our brain). Remember anything is truly possible as 50 years ago the internet and mobile phones were futuristic and not possible!

Do your own research, spend some time informing yourself and come from a place of some knowledge rather than a place of ignorance because its easier!

Really interested to hear your feedback!

Much love and light
Tamar

Being Spiritual - What does that Mean?

This was a very important question I asked myself as there are so many variations and opinions about "being spiritual". So my learning is this.......it is whatever you want it to mean to you. When I started this journey without consciously aware that I was going in a different direction as it just felt like it was the track I was meant to go on. Thought I would share some ideas so let me know what you think x

This is one idea .......Spirituality is the concept of an ultimate or an alleged immaterial reality; an inner path enabling a person to discover the essence of his/her being; or the "deepest values and meanings by which people live."Spiritual practices, including meditation, prayer and contemplation, are intended to develop an individual's inner life. Spiritual experiences can include being connected to a larger reality, yielding a more comprehensive self; joining with other individuals or the human community; with nature or the cosmos; or with the divine realm. Spirituality is often experienced as a source of inspiration or orientation in life. It can encompass belief in immaterial realities or experiences of the immanent or transcendent nature of the world.

Another idea........One of the great gifts of spiritual knowledge is that it realigns your sense of self to something you may not have even ever imagined was within you. Spirituality says that even if you think you're limited and small, it simply isn't so. You're greater and more powerful than you have ever imagined. A great and divine light exists inside of you. This same light is also in everyone you know and in everyone you will ever know in the future. You may think you're limited to just your physical body and state of affairs — including your gender, race, family, job, and status in life — but spirituality comes in and says "there is more than this."

Notice that spirit sounds similar to words like inspire and expire. This is especially appropriate because when you're filled with spiritual energy, you feel great inspiration, and when the spiritual life force leaves your body, your time on this earth expires. These are two of the main themes of the spiritual journey:

Allowing yourself to be filled with inspiration, which also translates into love, joy, wisdom, peacefulness, and service. Remembering that an inevitable expiration awaits to take you away from the very circumstances you may think are so very important right now.The study of spirituality goes deeply into the heart of every matter and extends far beyond the physical world of matter. Spirituality connects you with the profoundly powerful and divine force that's present in this universe. Whether you're looking for worldly success, inner peace, or supreme enlightenment, no knowledge can propel you to achieve your goals and provide as effective a plan for living as does spiritual knowledge.

Going beyond the physical world. Perhaps the best way to think about a spiritual approach to the world is to contrast it with a more common materialistic approach.

The materialistic approach: The materialistic approach relies primarily on empirical evidence provided by the five senses — what can literally be seen, heard, tasted, touched, or smelled. This approach depends on the outer appearances of things to decide how and what to think and feel about them. A materialistic person fixes whatever may be wrong or out of place in his or her world by moving things around and effecting outer changes. The spiritual approach: In contrast, the spiritual way is to see beyond mere outer appearances and the five senses to an intuitive perception of the causes behind outer conditions. Someone with a spiritual approach may change and uplift their world by first transforming and improving his or her own vision.


One of the main teachings of spirituality is to look within and find what you seek within yourself. The external world is ephemeral, temporary, and ever changing; in fact, your body will die one day, sweeping all those worldly accoutrements away like a mere pile of dust. Your inner realm, on the other hand, is timeless, eternal, and deeply profound.

Knowing how spirituality differs from religion. Although religion and spirituality are sometimes used interchangeably, they really indicate two different aspects of the human experience. You might say that spirituality is the mystical face of religion.

Spirituality is the wellspring of divinity that pulsates, dances, and flows as the source and essence of every soul. Spirituality relates more to your personal search, to finding greater meaning and purpose in your existence. Some elements of spirituality include the following:

• Looking beyond outer appearances to the deeper significance and soul of everything

• Love and respect for God

• Love and respect for yourself

• Love and respect for everybody

Religion is most often used to describe an organized group or culture that has generally been sparked by the fire of a spiritual or divine soul. Religions usually act with a mission and intention of presenting specific teachings and doctrines while nurturing and propagating a particular way of life.
Religion and spirituality can blend beautifully. Different religions can look quite unlike one another. Some participants bow to colorful statues of deities, others listen to inspired sermons while dressed in their Sunday finery, and yet others set out their prayer rugs five times a day to bow their heads to the ground. Regardless of these different outer manifestations of worship, the kernel of religion is spirituality, and the essence of spirituality is God or the Supreme Being.

Spirituality is:

Beyond all religions yet containing all religions
Beyond all science yet containing all science
Beyond all philosophy yet containing all philosophy
As one becomes more spiritual, animalistic aggressions of fighting and trying to control the beliefs of other people can be cast off like an old set of clothes that no longer fits. In fact, many seekers begin to feel that every image of divinity is just one more face of their own, eternally ever-present God.

Loving and respecting all religions and images of God doesn't mean that you have to agree with all their doctrines. In fact, you don't even have to believe and agree with every element and doctrine of your own religion! This goes for any teachings you may encounter along your path. Everybody thinks that what they are doing is right. That's what's so fun about the world. Everybody is doing something different, and each one believes deep in his soul that what he believes is right — some with more contemplation and conviction than others.

What else is possible?

It is a time in my life where I seem to have come to those cross roads again. It seems to happen at least every 10 years where I get this unsettled feeling and I stop and look at my life and see where I am at. I did this when I turned 30 and made some big decisions then! I got divorced and decided to move to the UK permanently so nothing major - just some life changing options.

To be honest I really didn't think to hard about either. For some reason I get to a stage where I just know what needs doing. My marriage was ok, been having some communication problems so we went to counselling, which never worked as he was not honest and didn't communicate with the therapist either. He wanted a house wife and I was a successful solo-preneur who travelled alot doing events, trainings and weekends away to venues. He actually was a really nice guy but not the right match as we just wanted completely different things. We remained great friends.  Sadly though he had an affair which I only found out afterwards. What can I tell you?!!!

After my home had been broken into twice in a month I just decided the writing was on the wall and it was time to spread my wings and fly! Little did I realise what a challenge that would be as I arrived in the UK one week after 9/11. It was not a great time and the whole hospitality industry crashed in the UK for about 6 months. It was a steep learning curve however I was pleased to be in a completely new country, new culture and on my own.

So now 12 years later I am getting that feeling again! My life has been full on for the last 10 years in the UK - the most challenging of my life with some of the greatest times and some of the worst both personally and professionally. So here I am again looking at my life going "what else is possible?" There are a few things that I have decided I REALLY want for at least the next 10 years of my life but preferably the rest of my life:

• More sunshine!
• Travel to new countries and old ones to visit friends
• To be close to my sister and niece (she's 8 and just beautiful)
• Live in a healthy and calm environment
• Be close with nature and particularly the sea
• Change my work to being focused on people and animals
• Learn more about alternative healing
• Have a soulful loving relationship

so not much at all then.......................

I can still do all the things I want to and have already started now as most of it is internet based or Skype so I just get to chose my view from my window! 

I am excited about the rest of my life and feel really privileged to have had the incredible experiences I have had over the past 12 years but it is time for me to move on.....What have I learnt from the experiences I have had? I leave that for another time x

Silver Linning!

With all experiences in life I have come to learn there is always something positive to gain from even what seems to be a negative experience. A passing of someone so dear and loved, a relationship that breaks up, a child who leaves home for the first time, a family member who leaves to live in another country, all of these seem challenging at the time and in most ways they are, and yet I see the other side of each experience too. The opportunity for that some one dear to no longer be in pain and be in a better place, a relationship that ends so we get the chance to fall in love again, a child venturing into to the world as their own person, family that may have better prospects or life style in another country, how exciting!!!

I think it is mainly how we personally feel and react to our experiences in our lives which determine how we chose to relate to what is happening. With my Dad's passing I am really truly only sad for me and the rest of the family as we will miss his physical body not being here with us as we are so used too. I am not sad for my Dad at all as I know he is no longer in pain, he is no longer worrying about his health and going into a home due to disability, he is no longer frustrated as he can't do all the things he wanted to as his body was failing him, he is in a place now where he can be an incredible source of guidance and support for all of us in a way he was not able to do during his life time on earth.

So this brings me onto what happens now......what lessons, what strength, what meaning can we take from such challenging experiences that are so bitter sweet? Here are the main things for me that have really come to my attention through this experience:

• I appreciate all the great times I had with my Dad and cherish those with my Mum now
• My life has a new direction, a new meaning of gratitude and love more than before
• To always be honest and caring to those you love including yourself
• To enjoy every day just as it unfolds and not be thinking of the past or the future
• To see your parent not just as a parent but as a person too
• Express your love as often as you can 
• That time is the most precious gift of all 

Now I am finally ready to take on the next phase of my life with gratitude and love for the wonderful lessons my Dad taught me in this life and will guide me in the next phase of my own life.  x

Life's Journey

It has been a while since I posted mainly due to a number of life changing experiences over the last 6 months or so. But also because I didn't feel like writing and baring my soul and thoughts which was a new feeling for me. Now I understand what they mean about writers block as if you just not in the write space, then you have to leave it until you are. Now I am ready to share my experiences and learnings over the last few months.

Making choices in our lives can be challenging especially if you don't go with your intuition,  you make the choice out of negative emotion or you just don't really think things through. Well I am guilty of all of these when it came to parents. I love my parents as they have given me so much to help me in the world. My relationship with my mother has never been close as every since I can remember I believed I was adopted. My father died when I was 2 years of age and I was definitely my fathers daughter so even at this tender age it unconsciously affected me that he was no longer there. However this was short lived as my step Dad replaced this role within a couple of years. And he was just an incredible angel for me. I felt loved and supported and bonded as I had never felt this with my mother. My childhood until I was 18 was a serious of typically family issues of ups and downs. For the most part I had a privileged up bringing with both parents and a comfortable home and good education. My main challenge was my relationship with my mother and unfortunately still remains to be to this day. Anyway we all have our stories and really that is not what I wanted to share so much as the impact my Dad's recent passing has had on my life and our family.

My Dad was a very gentle, caring, thoughtful, loving and easy going man. It would not be unfair to say that my mother though wore the pants in the house. So for most of my life my Dad has always been the one I went to for love and support. So when my mother mentioned 6 years ago, that they wanted to move from South Africa, I opened myself up to the possibility of them moving to the UK. My Dad is from England, even though he has been in Africa for over 50 years. Now I know my Dad was not keen to come back to the cold weather and completely different lifestyle as he really loved South Africa and all his friends were there too. As his age, 75, Dad had already had some major health scares and his challenges with his spine and back were increasing, so I understand from a medical point of view, the UK was a better option. Additionally where they were living was becoming more dangerous by the day. So this is when I made my first decision without really thinking it through. I agreed after some "manipulation" and from a sense of guilt, to have my parents move in with me. Dad was never going to be a problem but well my mother, any daughter can understand that challenge. Not only that I was married at the time. I really didn't take my husbands concerns into serious consideration and I was soon to pay for that lack of judgement.

So five years on, divorced and alone with my Dad for the last two years, things were ok and easy going. My Mum had decided she needed to find them a place as with the challenges of my divorce and problems my Mum and I were having, I needed her out of the house. My Dad wanted to remain with me where I looked after him most of the time, but also understood I needed my own time so this year he would spend the weekend with my Mum which for the most part gave his a bit of variety. His physical condition was getting worse throughout the year and we were very nervous for him because of the potential of a bad fall. And that is exactly what happened in the late morning in August. He had a critical fall and broke his neck. It was a terrible shock for all of us including my Dad of course.

We were at the time unaware of how serious the fall was as the doctors confirmed he was paralysed from his shoulders down. God I was devastated as even though he was wobbly on his feet he was still able to moved about on his crutches and now being totally unable to move his arms or legs, I knew would have been horrendous for him. It was then I realised my life was about to change. Understanding the degree of damage to his spine it dawned on me that in fact he could die from his condition. Soon thereafter the specialists in hospital confirmed it was unlikely he would make it through the next few days. Wow what a blow and suddenly my life was changed in that instant. I know my Dad would prefer to go instead of remaining in a body that didn't work. But what shock! This wonderful and gorgeous man was dying right before my eyes.

My journey over my life has always been linked in some way to the spiritual world. Was always interested in the imaginary people around me ever since I was small, a keen interest in fairies, angels, ghosts and anything mythical or magical. I have known I had a guardian angel by my side for almost all my life. So when two years ago I started this personal transformational journey, it felt like the perfect thing to be doing. I hadn't realised the impact it had really had on me until my father had his accident. Even though I wanted him to ok and alive, it was my inner sense, a voice that said it would be ok if he carried on with his own journey. That is when I found peace that no matter what happened it would be the right thing for him. He didn't want to go into a home, he felt life was leaving his body though his mind was so active and alive. I know it frustrated him but he never complained. Within 4 days my Dad passed. The incredible thing is he hang on until my sister who lives in New Zealand arrived. She had about 20 min with him and then he was gone. Even as I write these words my heart hurts and tears role down my face and I am at peace. I miss seeing him every morning in his bed looking out into the garden where I brought his tea and biscuits. The evening spent drinking wine and reminiscing and really just the wonderful time I had to get to know him not just as my Dad but as a man. He is with me always with little signs where ever I look. I have the privilege of knowing some great mediums and have had solace in knowing he is doing really well and is supporting me with all his love. I am truly privileged to have known such a great man, a wonderful husband, an beautiful father and a darling friend.

I know that the choice I made to have my parents come and live with me was in fact the greatest decision I had ever made as it gave me the last 5 precious of my Dad's life. For that I am truly grateful and honoured!

It is now time to move forward with my life and I thank the universe, divine source for giving me 40 years with someone so wonderful who I have learnt so much from. May your memory life on forever Dad and know I love you with all my heart x